Here we are. I have a dedicated page for my work! This is a true first time for me and I’m excited. I feel that scared happy feeling. Like, I’m proud. But will they like what I did? Also, it kinda reminds me of another first time I’ve had, which is the perfect first story to discuss with you guys.
I’ve always been pretty straightforward in getting what I want and that was the same for when I had my first sexual experience. In all the reading that I had done, I knew it could hurt and that generally a lot of girls felt pressured into having sex/having their first time.
For sure that wasn’t my plan. If it was going to happen for me, it would happen in a way I felt comfortable with and with someone I trusted. So, I orchestrated the whole night. I had on a negligee (don’t judge me), I had made a playlist, I put condoms on a shelf above the bed, I was clean, lotioned up and READY to go!
What actually happened? Well, I did my sexy seduction. My partner-in-crime was thoroughly surprised, but loved it. We started off kissing (yasss, foreplay step 1), I started on a blowjob (he thought I was amazing for a first timer, so yayyy, I was killingggg it) and then… he did this two second rub ON my vulva (not really my clit, more on top of lips) and straight away slid his finger in (hmm, okay, this doesn’t necessarily spell pleasure).
AND THEN HE WENT STRAIGHT FOR THE KILL. Ladies, I’m not sure if I have to tell you, but… that wasn’t it. I had read so much, and done my best to have no pain to have this? No, that was not it at all. But what I hadn’t realized in all my preparation was that I’d be too nervous to say: “Hey mister, that ain’t it”.
Years later, I can tell you that times have very much changed and I am now more than capable of mentioning that I am deriving no pleasure of what’s happening. I had to learn that I’m allowed to actually guide my partner AND I had to learn what it was that I even needed myself. It’s time we learn to speak up for ourselves, because as Maybelline says, you are worth it.
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